A Visit to the Shrink
Early today, I go a buzz from a friend. A typical conversation between to friend that ended up in like a shrink-patient conversation. Base from my shrink, este friend I'm a black bear personality daw, growwwl! hahaha It was very therapeutic for me and realized a lot of things. Here are some of the excerpt so read Away! hehehe
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AKO (2:13:26 AM): alam mo ba, nagbreak down ako nung last week
AKO (2:13:38 AM): i cursed all my friends sa multiply
AKO (2:13:43 AM): tas iyak lang ako ng iyak
AKO (2:13:47 AM): tas si KC minura ko
AKO (2:13:48 AM): hahaha
GEOFF (2:13:52 AM): ikaw naman kasi ... pagnakasubsub na sa trabho eh subsub talaga
AKO (2:13:52 AM): ng walang dahilan
AKO(2:14:03 AM): that was before the party
AKO (2:14:07 AM): pero naaus din naman
AKO (2:14:08 AM): namin
AKO (2:14:20 AM): diba parang wala kaming pinagawayan nung nagpunta kami sa dtour
AKO (2:14:34 AM): hehehe
AKO (2:14:37 AM): uu ganun talaga ko
GEOFF (2:14:43 AM): i know how your mood swings from extreme to extreme lalo na't pag pressure is really on you
AKO (2:14:45 AM): 110% on everything
AKO (2:14:55 AM): hahaha
AKO (2:14:57 AM): talaga?
AKO (2:15:01 AM): nanotice mo ba?
GEOFF (2:15:50 AM): ilang events na ba ang ginawa natin na pag pressured ka na eh dinadaan mo na lang sa inom coz your trying to calm your nerves from those people bitching around
AKO (2:16:01 AM): hahaha
AKO (2:16:03 AM): bwahaha
AKO (2:16:09 AM): galing magobserve
AKO (2:16:09 AM): hahaha
AKO (2:16:14 AM): natawa ko dun
AKO (2:16:15 AM): hahaha
GEOFF (2:16:17 AM): at least pag nag outburst ka eh you can sisi the alcohol on it
AKO (2:16:26 AM): I KNOW RIGHT!
AKO (2:16:27 AM): hahaha
AKO (2:16:34 AM): hahaha
AKO (2:16:36 AM): ihate you
GEOFF (2:16:36 AM): pero yung mata mo eh iba makatingin
AKO (2:16:39 AM): nakuha mo na tactic ko
AKO (2:16:43 AM): hahaha
GEOFF (2:17:13 AM): ako pa ... i wouldn't be a psych major and counselor for nothing
GEOFF (2:17:17 AM): hahaha
AKO (2:17:41 AM): hahaha
AKO (2:17:46 AM): bwahaha
AKO (2:17:50 AM): i can't stop laughing
AKO (2:19:06 AM): sorry nagblack out ehh
GEOFF (2:19:08 AM): hibernating black bear ang personality mo kasi
AKO (2:19:17 AM): meaning?
GEOFF (2:19:52 AM): the blackbear is one of the most endearing creatures but when it's not in the mood, its a sure killer
AKO (2:20:16 AM): PAAKK! pasok! hahaha
AKO (2:20:35 AM): kaya ayaw ko na mainit ulo ko kasi extreme talaga
GEOFF (2:20:36 AM): if we are to apply it to you, your personality is really the same endearing and deadly
AKO (2:20:43 AM): para kong crazy talaga
GEOFF (2:22:08 AM): pano naman kasi hindi ka magiging crazy eh you suppressed some of your self
GEOFF (2:22:35 AM): you conformed so much that when its crunch time eh walang kang outlet
AKO (2:22:51 AM): uu nga eh
AKO (2:22:53 AM): so true
AKO (2:23:01 AM): ... just send me the bill doc
AKO (2:23:03 AM): hahaha
AKO (2:23:07 AM): so what should i do
AKO (2:23:10 AM): ganito na ko eh
GEOFF (2:23:16 AM): instead of a productive stress release eh you turned to something more tangible ... food
AKO (2:23:38 AM): I SO HATE YOU NOW
AKO (2:23:39 AM): hahaha
AKO (2:23:42 AM): basang basa mo ko
AKO (2:23:44 AM): ano ba yan
GEOFF1 (2:23:46 AM): i was in the same state as you before
AKO (2:23:49 AM): may binabasa ka ba na libro?
GEOFF (2:23:58 AM): wala ah
AKO (2:24:11 AM): I'm amazed ... so true
GEOFF (2:24:11 AM): this is all based from experience of me and of others i counseled
GEOFF (2:24:52 AM): what i did to overcome my feeling of restlessness is know what i want to achieve
GEOFF (2:25:10 AM): make short term goals with long effects
GEOFF (2:25:16 AM): and condition myself at it
GEOFF (2:25:40 AM): not so much on what other would think but what i would think of myself when i see myself with others
GEOFF (2:26:30 AM): when i see myself as fab than others then i envive fabulousity
GEOFF (2:26:49 AM): when i see myself as a hermit to other then i envive incognito
GEOFF (2:27:09 AM): but that does not stop me from enjoying a social life
GEOFF (2:27:42 AM): i go out by myself and enjoy people watching while having a cup of coffee in a cafe or a booze on a bar
GEOFF (2:28:05 AM): that is my release ... being alone and not being lonely
GEOFF (2:28:25 AM): it gives me time to think ... to contemplate and even meditate
AKO (2:28:51 AM): i can go sa coffee shop alone .... i do that all the time ... tas nanonood ng sine kain sa resto alone ... but the difference is ... I'm lonely ...
AKO (2:29:02 AM): wow, very enlightening ...
AKO (2:29:34 AM): thanks geoff ha .. parang nabawasan ng half yung problems ... gumaan siya infairview
GEOFF (2:29:38 AM): yun ang difference ... sulk so much in your loneliness that it controls who you are and how you perceive yourself to others
GEOFF (2:31:39 AM): remember that our lifestyle and sexuality has one definite reality ... we are alone ... but it can be overcomed by not being lonely
AKO (2:33:12 AM): so true ... hayzz... yun nga rin eh, kasi before i was enjoying life na sanay naman ako to be alone and not lonely ... but as i age parang ... putek hinahanap ko na to be with someone ... na alam ko naman di naman necessity yun ... it's just a bonus ...
GEOFF (2:35:00 AM): i am a member of a singles forever group ... and was a dedicated single for more than 2 years after my last m2m relationship
GEOFF (2:36:35 AM): i longed to be with someone but i did not pressure myself at it ... i empowered my thoughts by releasing my aspirations to the universe and pray to Him for a person that would love me for who i am and my topaks
AKO (2:36:57 AM): i never had a serious relationship ... actually i never had a relationship. hahaha
AKO (2:37:10 AM): yun nga eh, bakit kasi kailangan pa ...
AKO (2:37:13 AM): sana di na kailangan
AKO (2:37:14 AM): hahaha
GEOFF (2:38:26 AM): then came along emil ... who to my standard and to what my friends perceived my standard is somewhat not inclined ... but i took the risk
AKO (2:39:09 AM): should i ask for it? should i tell the universe i want it ... ayako nga HEHEHE
AKO (2:39:29 AM): well I'm happy for you ... at least the universe responded to your plea
AKO (2:41:03 AM): geoff super thanks talaga ... you're such a friend ... naliwanangan ako ng bonggang bongga!
AKO (2:41:30 AM): I thank the universe nagcruz din ang landas natin ... not just you but all the true people na nakilala ko sa DL
GEOFF (2:44:14 AM): likewise
